“the worst kind of pain is when your smiling just to stop the tear from falling”

Hey everyone

Can’t believe I have been blogging for over a week I have been really enjoying it and thank you for all your lovely comments and likes. I will start doing some thing a bit different soon including things such as my everyday make up, but for now it’s just a bit about my day. After this I will try to be a bit more positive but talking about what’s happened has a way of making me feel better about it.

Well the morning was okay it’s when I had lunch, don’t get me wrong I don’t particularly like education and learning your typical maths English and science but I am the type of girl who wants to just get there head down and then get the hell out of the building so a 45 minute lunch seems to last a good couple of hours. I am lucky I have a close friend and we share the same sort of attitude there but when you get people just moan about stupid things like I can’t sit here because there eating something I don’t like it becomes draining. Anyway I am fairly good at just laughing it of but it comes a point when you can’t take it anymore. I get fed up when  a 15 year old is so pathetic they have to stand outside using the excuse she can’t eat in side just to bitch about someone. So called friends just use you for when it suits and then when it’s the other way round you get nothing in return and it may sound stupid but when someone decides that your no longer of any use and you just get forgotten it hurts. Trying to have a conversation with them and then someone more interesting walks along you just get forgetten and fade into there distant past, but its one of those things you have to smile about else the tears will start rolling and might never stop. Going to school is long and its safe to say I can’t wait to get away from it. However I am a believer of everything happens for a reason so I am guessing it’s taught me a lesson, be careful who you trust as sometimes people turn out to be someone you thought they weren’t.

On a more positive note I am seeing the pony on Friday and I have some great family things planned soon, as well as a make up shop with my main girl in half term and lots more we have too look forward to. Also my guinea pig and hamster beds have arrived which are really cute, and I finally got round to ordering real techniques brushes.

Thank you if you read any of that love you guys let me know if there are any types of blog posts you want me to do. Have a good day tomorrow

Love

~M xx

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“too me you are perfect”

Hey

Hope everyone is well and has been enjoying themselves this weekend and thank you to everyone who has liked commented and followed I really appreciate it. Today I thought I would tell you about someone who is special to me.

Well when I say someone I don’t mean a person I am talking about an animal, however there are many special people in my life also, but while most people would rather stay inside in the warm on a wintery Friday evening I prefer to be at the yard. I don’t have a stack load of money or my own horse but I am lucky to have a pony on loan. She is my world my escape from everything after a long week knowing I can go see her keeps me going I love her in a way many people may not understand but that doesn’t matter. Its like having a friend who will listen for hours and enjoy your company without telling you that you did something wrong and even when she decidedes to be cheeky and I end up falling of it doesn’t matter because she’s perfect just the way she is.

Riding her for the last year has made me see more positive in everything and I thought I should tell you a bit about her as she is a big part of my life and part of the reason I am who I am today. Sorry to those of you who may not find this blog as interesting.

Thank you if you read all I hope Monday goes well and if there any particular blogs you would like me to do let me know in the comments. I will try to do a January favourites at the end of the month and my everyday makeup but I am open to ideas.

xxLove

~ M

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“thanks for being the friend who believed in me”

Hi hope your all okay and have a good weekend.

Now today I wasn’t really sure what to blog about as I had a few ideas but in the end I decided to tell you about how I came to realise something my friend taught me.

Whilst I was gazing out of the window at a group of year children who were scared of going inside alone it occured to me that I used to be one of those people who would just follow the crowd in fear of not being accepted. I then realised Amber had taught me that being yourself is much more important than  trying to be someone your not. Gradually over the past year I have stopped being a ‘sheep’ and started actually trying to be myself. School may be an exception to this as I have found it impossible trying to open up and be me, but there is no way without her I would have the confidence to get a job and go out for days without the fear of being judged. So thank you amber for always believing in me and not just leaving me because I had little personality when you first met me.

It’s always easier being a ‘sheep’ but when you become yourself you will feel so much better for it it’s like giving yourself a fresh start.

Thankyou to those of you have read this comment and tell me what plans u have for the weekend .

Love

~ M xx

Just the start

Hi

I hope that you all had a good new year!

Now were to begin. I want to make my first blog about something of interest however I have decided to have it as a sort of introduction. So here I go if you don’t want to know why I have started blogging then you probably won’t want to read the rest of this but anyway for those of you that might want to.

A few weeks before we broke up for the Christmas holidays I decided I wanted to stop pretending to be someone I am not. 1. It means I have to hide up the truth about everything 2. I constantly feel uncomfortable 3. It makes me nervous and lastly I feel as if I don’t fit in. Well it’s easier said than done trying to be who you really are around people who think they know you and I lack confidence as it is. After deciding it was harder than I thought and much easier to put on a fake smile and nod your way through it when I only have 2 years left at this school I gave up. Now I know I shouldn’t but it doesn’t seem worth it when there is only a few people in the school who I actually trust one being my brother. So when my friend who knows Pretty much everything about me suggested blogging I thought I would try it in the new year. Basically my blog is going to have a mix of things on it really but I wanted somewhere I could be totally me without being told its not like me to say that or behave in this way. Maybe even other people feel the same way.

If if you have read all of that then thanyou I hope you have a good week. Let me know you thoughts on why you started blogging.

Thanks again love u

~ M xx