“the worst kind of pain is when your smiling just to stop the tear from falling”

Hey everyone

Can’t believe I have been blogging for over a week I have been really enjoying it and thank you for all your lovely comments and likes. I will start doing some thing a bit different soon including things such as my everyday make up, but for now it’s just a bit about my day. After this I will try to be a bit more positive but talking about what’s happened has a way of making me feel better about it.

Well the morning was okay it’s when I had lunch, don’t get me wrong I don’t particularly like education and learning your typical maths English and science but I am the type of girl who wants to just get there head down and then get the hell out of the building so a 45 minute lunch seems to last a good couple of hours. I am lucky I have a close friend and we share the same sort of attitude there but when you get people just moan about stupid things like I can’t sit here because there eating something I don’t like it becomes draining. Anyway I am fairly good at just laughing it of but it comes a point when you can’t take it anymore. I get fed up when  a 15 year old is so pathetic they have to stand outside using the excuse she can’t eat in side just to bitch about someone. So called friends just use you for when it suits and then when it’s the other way round you get nothing in return and it may sound stupid but when someone decides that your no longer of any use and you just get forgotten it hurts. Trying to have a conversation with them and then someone more interesting walks along you just get forgetten and fade into there distant past, but its one of those things you have to smile about else the tears will start rolling and might never stop. Going to school is long and its safe to say I can’t wait to get away from it. However I am a believer of everything happens for a reason so I am guessing it’s taught me a lesson, be careful who you trust as sometimes people turn out to be someone you thought they weren’t.

On a more positive note I am seeing the pony on Friday and I have some great family things planned soon, as well as a make up shop with my main girl in half term and lots more we have too look forward to. Also my guinea pig and hamster beds have arrived which are really cute, and I finally got round to ordering real techniques brushes.

Thank you if you read any of that love you guys let me know if there are any types of blog posts you want me to do. Have a good day tomorrow


~M xx


“too me you are perfect”


Hope everyone is well and has been enjoying themselves this weekend and thank you to everyone who has liked commented and followed I really appreciate it. Today I thought I would tell you about someone who is special to me.

Well when I say someone I don’t mean a person I am talking about an animal, however there are many special people in my life also, but while most people would rather stay inside in the warm on a wintery Friday evening I prefer to be at the yard. I don’t have a stack load of money or my own horse but I am lucky to have a pony on loan. She is my world my escape from everything after a long week knowing I can go see her keeps me going I love her in a way many people may not understand but that doesn’t matter. Its like having a friend who will listen for hours and enjoy your company without telling you that you did something wrong and even when she decidedes to be cheeky and I end up falling of it doesn’t matter because she’s perfect just the way she is.

Riding her for the last year has made me see more positive in everything and I thought I should tell you a bit about her as she is a big part of my life and part of the reason I am who I am today. Sorry to those of you who may not find this blog as interesting.

Thank you if you read all I hope Monday goes well and if there any particular blogs you would like me to do let me know in the comments. I will try to do a January favourites at the end of the month and my everyday makeup but I am open to ideas.


~ M

❤ xx

“I love walking in the rain because nobody knows I am crying”

Hi everyone

Thank you to all of you who read my previous post. I was going to blog yesterday but my mind was in the wrong place and I kept going to write but it made little sense.

Going back to school was harder than I had imagined and I felt so out of place. To be honest it’s not really the school that’s the problem it’s more down to the people there. I came home and just wanted to cry everything that had happened was just a mess and it all was starting to become too much. However feeling that alone when surrounded by so many people made me realise how lucky I am. It may sound odd but looking around the group’s of friends you could see all the people who were just using each other rather than actually being friends who would help you if you needed them, and because of that it made me think that I am lucky as I do have friends ans family who would support you in the good and the bad.

So even though you may feel alone at times where you don’t think you fit in think of those people who have been there for you when you needed them most. It’s easier said than done but it makes you appreciate it and at the end of the day the people who look as though they have the most company are probably the most alone.

I hope you have all had a good day comment and let me know what you have enjoyed most today.

Thanks for reading


~ M xx